Can you guys believe 2018 is already over?? I feel like this year has flown by faster than any other year.
It’s definitely been a crazy year to say the least. I’ve experienced some awful things this past year like my car accident, but I’ve also accomplished some amazing things throughout 2018.
So, I thought with the year ending in just a few hours, I would reminisce on my favorite moments of 2018.
July 2018, in Clearwater Florida (also my new favorite place) I accomplished the goal I set for myself back in 2010. Since I stepped on that AUS stage back when I was 12 I knew I wanted the chance to represent the America’s U.S. Miss system, and now 8 years later I am living that dream as the reigning America’s U.S. Miss 2018!
Walking in New York Fashion Week has been a dream of mine since I started modeling. Getting to finally accomplish that dream and walk for Jessie Couture in the show produced by Supermodels Unlimited Magazine was such an honor and I couldn’t have felt more proud walking down that runway.
Now this is definitely the most “glamorous” of my accomplishments this year, but at the same time It was probably the most rewarding. For those of you who don’t know, I have struggled with an eating disorder and self harm addiction from a young age. It took control over my life, and consumed every part of my mind.
I spent every minute, of every day for years hating myself and harming myself. It took a lot of work and a lot of support the few people I had around me that knew, and understood my situation for me to begin my road to recovery.
It’s been anything but easy, and I still have my days where I feel like giving up but this year on November 3, having reached my 4th year mark of being clean from self harming was such a weird yet incredible feeling. It didn’t feel real, because back at my lowest point I never saw myself getting here. I sort of accepted that I was always going to live with this addiction, and never getting the help I needed.
As weird as it felt to hit this milestone my younger self never saw me doing, it was so rewarding. Each year takes a whole lot of work to continue hitting these milestones, but the hard work is so worth it at the end of the day.
2018 has been one crazy year.
I’m proud of myself for everything I was able to accomplish for myself this year.
I managed to survive all the awful things that were thrown at me.
Most importantly, I’m ready to face whatever the new year has in store for me.
I know we all say it every year, but I am determined to make 2019 my best year yet.
Happy New Year loves!
What are you going to accomplish in this new year?